Another Sleepless Night?
Daddy broke the bad news to me when I reached home from work. My heart sank.
It wasn’t very nice & it’s not something that I’ll ever want to hear. Nope, never.
How can the world be so cruel? Why?
Daddy knew that what he told me was the last thing on earth I wanted to hear.
This can’t be. I don’t know how long I can hold any longer. I can’t take it *breathes*
How come?
Why?
No such thing!?!!!
How can?
Daddy was so sweet and sensitive that he saw my pain and said “you can sleep with mommy & daddy tonight”.
It’s hard….. very hard.
I don’t think I can ever sleep tonight.
I don’t think I can bare having sleepless nights with all the assignments and work piling up.
Why is life so difficult?!
Why???
The air-con in my room has officially gone “kaput”. *boohooooo*
Dona Nobis Pacem
Lord, give us peace.
It’s 2.36pm and I am sitting right in front of the computer, resting and reflecting upon the past 2 hours of the day. The past 2 hours has been disgraceful, disappointing if you were to see all of me.
I was like a walking volcano waiting to erupt, easily irritated by the slightest thing of all. What has robbed me of the joy I once had? Yes, I don’t like what I am now.
Father, I seek your forgiveness. Grant me love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control. I think I’m losing it. Lord, I need you.

Psalm 23: 1-6
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.
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- I wanna go Ireland someday… lay my head on that green, green pasture, beside the still waters -
- Lord, I thank You that You are always, always good -
A Perfect Day
This is one of those days where I don’t feel like doing anything. Hmm… it has been like that for today.
Yes, work is piling up and I’ve been avoiding them all.
It’s called procrastination, everyone’s best friend. Hmm…
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My ideal day would be… *goes into a trance*
It’s cold & raining outside and the weather’s just perfect for a day of rest. The best thing to do is to snuggle up in bed enjoying myself under the warm and comfy covers. *smiles*
“Thud, thud, thud”, rhythmic, gentle footsteps can be heard, becomes louder and louder… it stops.
The old door squeaks open. I see a face beaming with glow, smiling and walking towards me. In his hands, a brown tray with two glasses of milk, four sunny-side-ups – two on each plate, bacons & buns. There’s… another face smiling at me
“Let’s have breakfast in bed”, he whispered.
After breakfast, I’ll slide my feet in those pink, fluffy, woolly bedroom slippers and put on my pink bathrobe. Clean up the mess on the bed and make the bed, arranging the pillows from the back to front, straightening up the covers. Yes, then I’ll go brush my teeth =D *sparkles*
Walk downstairs with a Bible in hand, into the room where it’ll be just me and Him (I meant God).
Then, I’ll walk to the music room and fill the whole house with Jazz music.
I’ll make cappuccinos to warm us up. Two. =)
I’ll walk to the hammock with the cappuccino on my right and a book on my left. Slowly sit myself down and lay right there. Reading and sipping away.
Where would he be???
On the other hammock, right next to mine. Reading & sipping away too.
Oh, the dog? It’ll be lying down just right below us, sleeping. Yes, it’s one lazy dog.
To be continued….
Why BM?
Wahai saudara-saudari sekalian, apa khabar? Saya harap saudara dan saudari sekalian sihat sejahtera. Tujuan saya untuk “mengeblog” hari ini ialah untuk buat latihan supaya saya tidak gagal khusus BM ini.
Kebenarannya, saya langsung tidak fasih dalam bahasa ini sebab saya “pelajar rumah” yang tidak pernah ambil PMR atau SPM. Maka ini, pemahaman saya dalam bahasa Malaysia ini kurang baik walaupun saya seorang rakyat Malaysia sepanjang hidupku. Saya tahu apa yang anda fikirkan. Adakah saya seorang yang tidak setia kepada negara? Itu terpulanglah kepada fikiran anda dan saya langsung tidak peduli apa yang kamu sedang fikir. Saya cintai negaraku, tetapi saya rasa perasaan cinta terhadap negara kita bukan sekadar fasih bahasa sahaja.
Dengan ringkas, saya hendak latih bahasa ini sesungguhnya dan tidak mahu menghadapinya lagi di masa yang akan datang. Saya tidak mahu menghadapi asas usul BM dan entah apa “ketam” lagi. Saya cuma mahu menerima siswazah dengan secepat mungkin!
Sekian sahaja sesi mengeluh ini, terima kasih atas kesabaran saudara-saudari.
Semoga saya (dan anda) berjaya =)
Rest Assured
I used to love growing up. LOL! used to! To me, growing up means getting out from school. I never liked school. At that young age, I envied all those working cause they seemed so free!
Kids do weird stuff. Now when I reflect back on how I used to play “pretend-pretend” a.k.a role play… it would be really embarrassing if those moments were recorded. So not cute okay! I loved dressing up and most of the stuff I used weren’t mine – MOM’s! Put on mom’s heels and felt elegant, tall… poist. Yeah, tried on my mom’s lipstick and wondered how women could “tahan” that stench right at their lips! Mom’s pearl necklaces and earrings were pretty heavy too.
C’mon, I bet you did too – maybe we just role played different roles.

Superman?
I know of somebody who shaved her eyebrows away using her dad’s shaver when she was young!
I know of somebody who shaved his upper lips and had the “joker” scar on the face!
[Shavers are dangerous! Try waxing =)]
In short, I wanted to grew up fast lah. Now, I prefer to take things slow (not because of old age!)
Lately, I’ve been thinking about my future a whole lot. I have totally no clue what’s ahead.
Where I’ll be?
What I’ll be?
Ahh, 6 months time comes the real world. Yeah, REAL WORLD. Yeap, growing up is difficult. Thinking of finishing school and what’s next scares me!
Just today (in particular) God read my mind. I didn’t exactly pray cause I thought it’s still far away. Anyway, I had a 30 minutes in between time to be alone and just thought I’ll read today’s quiet time material. And, I thank God for it. Felt so comforted and at peace. I copied and pasted from rbc.net so that you would be blessed too!
Read it & be blessed, okay?
Bible reading: John 10:1-6
Last fall my wife, Carolyn, and I were driving up a winding mountain road near our home in Idaho when we came across a large flock of sheep moving down the road toward us. A lone shepherd with his dogs was in the vanguard, leading his flock out of summer pasture into the lowlands and winter quarters.
We pulled to the side of the road and waited while the flock swirled around us. We watched them until they were out of sight, then I wondered: Do sheep fear change, movement, new places?
Like most older folks, I like the “fold”—the old, familiar places. But all is shifting and changing these days; I’m being led out, away from familiar surroundings and into a vast unknown. What new limits will overtake me in the coming days? What nameless fears will awaken? Jesus’ words from John 10 come to mind: “When he brings out his own sheep, he goes before them” (v.4).
We may well be dismayed at what life has for us this year and next, but our Shepherd knows the way we’re taking. And He goes before. He will not lead us down paths too dangerous or too arduous where He cannot help us. He knows our limits. He knows the way to green pasture and good water; all we have to do is follow. — David H. Roper
Child of My love, fear not the unknown morrow,
Dread not the new demand life makes of thee;
Thy ignorance doth hold no cause for sorrow
Since what thou knowest not is known to Me. —Exley
Our unknown future is secure in the hands of our all-knowing God.
-Into Thy hands I surrender, O Lord to Thee-
Beautiful Tuesday
It is a beautiful day. A very odd day, in fact.
Today is one of those days when I could feel time moving slowly… BUT it was beautiful.
In a gist…
- I woke up at 11.40pm and it felt good cause I didn’t sleep the night before. I was happy that I woke up late.
- Mom bought pan mee for brunch.
- Left to college at 12.30 pm for experiment at 1.30pm. Reached there EARLY!
- I prayed to God for a friend to spend time with. Then came Kevin & green apple bubble tea @ Yippie Cup (I think it’s still not as great as the ones in Subang). Anyway…
- Had an urge to go for a jog. Reached home, changed, put on my socks, shoes, and jogged 3+1 rounds in the park.
- Captured 2 perfect pictures of my cousin brother. Was totally a “kodak” moment.
- See!!


- So cute!!! Rabbit teeth!
- Ate dinner with my parents & relatives from Sandakan.
I am considering whether I want to sign up for the work & travel next year. Anyone wanna join me???
Don’t wanna go annual dinner “alone” this year… Well, I’ll still go anyway…
Why is the font green? Cause I love green apple bubble tea!!
I thank God for today =)
Panoramas
Here’s to compensate for the lack of pictures in this blog.
Seriously, this is just seriously just for serious fun =)
Warning: Pictures below may cause epilepsy. View at your own risk.
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don’t ask!
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Sharon
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Aili … Pek Wah
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Dearest Baby =)
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and… Amber
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- The End -
-Dona Nobis Pacem-
Euphoria
Uh Oh…
I think…
neurotransmitter’s high on dopamine & norepinephrine…
phyenylethylanine too?
Uh oh? Why is this familiar happy feeling kicking in again?
Walking on Sunshine
The feeling is kicking in again. I’m feeling ecstatic!
I’m blaming it on 2 songs I heard tonight!
Is this feeling even normal?
I’m talking about the feeling of wanting to be in love and wanting to love… actually.
“Dooo doooo Dooo Dooop Doooo….”
