Hello World =)

Hah! December already!

Accomplished your year’s resolution yet?

Became stronger? Smarter? Wiser?

Ready to face next year & meet its new challenges?

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Looking back at the year, I realized that it was a “stretching” year for me. Stretched inside out. But, I’m thankful because if it wasn’t for the grace of God, I’d find life better on the deathbed. I love life although it is difficult at times. Mountains are meant to be conquered right??? LOL! I’m listening to “You raise me up” now!

I meant metaphorically, seriously.  No, I don’t wanna climb on any large and, or small landforms, hilly and, or non-hilly mountains, thank you!

December’s gonna be challenging & exciting =) Hello, December!

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Oh yes, the audition went well. I’m in =) I look forward to my journey at T.C.S.  They warn me that it’s gonna be tough. Come what may! Bring it on! I say in confidence now, I’ll shy out later :p Next production in May? Okay!

Eh, I need to get back to the slides =) Exam tomorrow! Rest too long ady! All the best, YOU!

It’s Not “I Love You”

I like his last few words said to me.

Never once heard.

Is it true? Is it real?

Time will tell.

I will wait.

Just Scribbles?

Sale! Sale! Sale!

Broke! Broke! Broke!

*sigh*

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Sorrylah, don’t know what to name this post. How’s the blog header you see ^up^ there???

Got a phone call from DSA today again. Been offered a free trip to Cambodia and it’s sponsored by MOHE. Hmm… Yes, I turn ‘em down. No thanks! The last time I attended a free trip sponsored by them, I suffered physically – what more in Cambodia?! No thanks :p Besides that, it clashes with finals =) So… awww.. cannot go!

The audition for BPsych Annual dinner gave me hope for the future. Why? I’m considering to go for an audition for a bigger one – the Canticle Singers. When it comes to confidence and all, mine is puny and I freak out when there are professionals all around me watching me in scrutiny.

Well, the audition is one thing. If I don’t make it through, then case close =) I might not be good enough or may not be ready to be there!

Now…. if I do make it through, the next thing to battle with is commitment. I spoke to the director last night through the phone and he warned me about commitment issues. Well, I have no issues with committing to it… but I’m more concern that I won’t be able to juggle with studies, CF, Church & many more. Oh, can I start in May then?

But I want to work & travel too?!  See, this is me. Don’t know what I want.

Okaylah, here are some random pictures I wanted to post up long ago. No relevance to what I’ve scribbled here tho… nevermind. Being random is not wrong, yeah?

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This is my work station now. Next to my bed.

I sit/lie on my bed =) cozy…

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Here’s a better view =)

Or is it the same?

Hahahah!

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My friends spoil me with a surprise drink (no reward for guessing what it is).

It was delivered to my house & completely made my day!

Same people who crept into my room and scare me with a candle and cake @ 12am in the morning on Nov 6!

Mei Juin & Jo Leen =) Thank you!

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A rip in my pants! Right at the butt!

How to wear out? =(

Okay, now you can stop staring at my butt.

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A birthday present given to me by Vic and Jeremy.

It became my teman for BM class because Kevin didn’t come.

Ahhh cookie monster! Nom Nom Nom…

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A new nickname given to me by John Low the Mohawk.

I think it’s pweety sweet tho =)

More pictures coming up someday.

December

*I can’t breate*

Literally grasping for air.

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2nd Dec – PSY 316 Assessment

5th Dec – BM Finals

10-15th Dec – Finals (4 subjects)

15-18th Dec – Youth camp.

11th Dec – HUC CF Christmas

19th Dec – HICT Christmas

21st Dec – Bpysch Annual Dinner (Prom)

23rd Dec – HUC HR Chrismas

24th Dec – HOF Christmas

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Lord, what’s Christmas again?

I don’t wanna get caught up with “celebrating” it and yet loose its meaning.

I already know the story.

I want to experience and feel it.

Help me be excited and not loose hope.

You came to give hope, right?

Lord, have mercy on me

Like it or Not?

I like:

to sit down and not do anything.

I don’t like:

the idea of being unproductive and wasting time.

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I like:

to look at pictures of food cause it won’t make me fat.

I don’t like:

getting hungry.

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I like:

to blog

I don’t like:

not knowing what to blog about

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I like:

you

I don’t like:

the fact that I can’t be with you.

Pangkor “Laut”

Okay, here’s a quick update! It’s not gonna flow smoothly but uhm, just bare with me lah k??

Pangkor trip was beyond expectation. I mean… it is not the kind of holiday I would look for BUT if it wasn’t for the people I went with and met there it could have been worst. I expected more because the whole trip was sponsored by MOHE but… hmm… I shouldn’t set my expectation so high… forgot what country I’m living in =/

The resort could have been better.

The food… err… totally not my type!

It reminded me how how reality and expectations are so very different. It was like the movie “500 days of summer” – the reality versus expectation scene. Well, no one told me that we had to run 10km + 10km for a race. Thank God for kind strangers and their motorbikes =) No one told me that there was jungle trekking & leaches. Ewww…

The motorbike rides were fun.. sitting on strangers (LOL… old men) bike were even better. I’ve always wanted to sit on bikes! Yes, I like it!

The banana boat rides & jet ski rides were free. Yup, that was fun!

It’s my first time repelling and I thought I did well =) was scary at first but fun! Flying fox… was boring cuz I kinda did it so many times already. Oh yeah… and I my love for volleyball is all coming back to me now =) *whee* although I am dead lousy… so… who’s up for a game?

LOL! We had karaoke night and I had to sing. HAD – cuz I didn’t feel like singing that night… had a rough evening. And… the list of songs were limited & I ended up singing “My heart will go on”… not my kind of song…. but heh… what to do!?!? I scored only 21/30… Heh =( so embarrassing.

I had a leach bite. Not in the jungle… but in the toilet while showering!

Anyway, it was a good experience lah… some activities were mentally and physically challenging. I puked. So weak. But, I am still thankful for good group mates and I think I’ve made a lot of good friends. Blackhawk’s the name of our group and we won like 20 hampers!

oh my, you know ah.. never in my life I get sick sea while snorkelling k! Okaylah, I snorkelled twice. But…. I got sea sick in the sea itself k! Thank God there were new  friends were there to care for me or I’ll cry in one corner.

Okay, got to do work now. My face is so burnt and it’s peeling off like onions. Random I know.

Dear Betsy,

some things are simply made forbidden & it should remain forbidden, so stay away!

Betsy’s new friends =)

Everything in One Day

Sunday (15/11/09)

Go to church

Go to Compassion Home to help Lynette Tan sign some letter

Drive to Damansara Kim park/Lynette’s house

Finish up the integrative report and send it to a kind soul to print & hand in for me.
(Any kind souls out there?)

Prepare for this Friday’s  CF

Wax my legs

Pack clothes

Sleep

Leave to Pangkor Laut @ 6.30am (16/11/09)

*wheeeeeee*

Okay… maybe I  should plan!

*redo*

Wake up @ 7am

Go to church @ 8am

Lunch @ 12pm

Start Integrative report @ 1pm

Go to Compassion Home to help Lynette Tan sign some letter @ 2pm

Continue & finish Integrative report @ 4pm

Prepare for this Friday’s  CF @ 4.15pm

Drive to Damansara Kim park/Lynette’s house @ 5pm

Pack clothes @ 6.30pm

Wax my legs @ 9pm

Sleep @ 11pm

Leave to Pangkor Laut @ 6.30am (16/11/09 – 19/11/09)

LOL… do you think it’ll work?

OKay, you can officially stalk me now!

I’m just kidding.. please don’t.

Another Sleepless Night?

Daddy broke the bad news to me when I reached home from work. My heart sank.

It wasn’t very nice & it’s not something that I’ll ever want to hear. Nope, never.

How can the world be so cruel? Why?

Daddy knew that what he told me was the last thing on earth I wanted to hear.

This can’t be. I don’t know how long I can hold any longer. I can’t take it *breathes*

How come?

Why?

No such thing!?!!!

How can?

Daddy was so sweet and sensitive that he saw my pain and said “you can sleep with mommy & daddy tonight”.

It’s hard….. very hard.

I don’t think I can ever sleep tonight.

I don’t think I can bare having sleepless nights with all the assignments and work piling up.

Why is life so difficult?!

Why???

 

The air-con in my room has officially gone “kaput”. *boohooooo*

Dona Nobis Pacem

Lord, give us peace.

It’s 2.36pm and I am sitting right in front of the computer, resting and reflecting upon the past 2 hours of the day. The past 2 hours has been disgraceful, disappointing if you were to see all of me.

I was like a walking volcano waiting to erupt, easily irritated by the slightest thing of all. What has robbed me of the joy I once had? Yes, I don’t like what I am now.

Father, I seek your forgiveness. Grant me love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control. I think I’m losing it. Lord, I need you.

Psalm 23: 1-6

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me;  your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

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- I wanna go Ireland someday… lay my head on that green, green pasture, beside the still waters -

- Lord, I thank You that You are always, always good -

A Perfect Day

This is one of those days where I don’t feel like doing anything.  Hmm… it has been like that for today.

Yes, work is piling up and I’ve been avoiding them all.

It’s called procrastination, everyone’s best friend. Hmm…

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My ideal day would be… *goes into a trance*

It’s cold & raining outside and the weather’s just perfect for a day of rest. The best thing to do is to snuggle up in bed enjoying myself under the warm and comfy covers. *smiles*

“Thud, thud, thud”, rhythmic, gentle footsteps can be heard,  becomes louder and louder… it stops.

The old door squeaks open.  I see a face beaming with glow, smiling and walking towards me. In his hands, a brown tray with two glasses of milk, four sunny-side-ups – two on each plate, bacons & buns. There’s… another face smiling at me

“Let’s have breakfast in bed”, he whispered.

After breakfast, I’ll slide my feet in those pink, fluffy, woolly bedroom slippers and put on my pink bathrobe. Clean up the mess on the bed and make the bed, arranging the pillows from the back to front, straightening up the covers. Yes, then I’ll go brush my teeth =D *sparkles*

Walk downstairs with a Bible in hand, into the room where it’ll be just me and Him (I meant God).

Then, I’ll walk to the music room and fill the whole house with Jazz music.

I’ll make cappuccinos to warm us up. Two. =)

I’ll walk to the hammock with the cappuccino on my right and a book on my left. Slowly sit myself down and lay right there. Reading and sipping away.

Where would he be???

On the other hammock, right next to mine. Reading & sipping away too.

Oh, the dog? It’ll be lying down just right below us, sleeping. Yes, it’s one lazy dog.

To be continued….